The last few weeks have been overwhelming to say the least, a whirlwind of Christmas festivities (which are always full of mixed emotions), job-seeking frustrations, matric results, university applications, back injuries and a full gamut of emotions including sadness, joy, anxiety and hopelessness.
Some nights I am still wrestling with these emotions, as the sun comes up, and exhausted is just not a happy place to be. For some reason, I have found it really difficult to clear my mind and let these, often toxic, emotions go.
It has been hard to identify the emotions recently; absolute pride and joy in my daughter's final matric results, which were quite brilliant. Then anxiety bordering on fear as I realised that she is just about to head off to university.
Honestly, I do not know if I am ready for that.
Of course, I know I want her to spread her wings and live her own life, but so soon?
Yesterday, she was a nervous little thing heading off to her first day at high school; today, she is grinning excitedly and finalising her plans to take off to a new city to study.
I think that the speed at which events are unfolding is quite insane and I am really struggling to breathe it all in.
Have you guys ever experienced this overwhelming anxiety and how did you deal with it?
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