Today is reboot day!
For the longest time I haven't felt like saying much of anything, and I am not sure I have ever felt less creative in my life. I have withdrawn into myself, a collection of despair, obsessive
and just simply feeling nothing.
The past few months have had so many disappointments and obstacles, and I don’t think I ever realised just how much everything has affected me. Having said that, I also recognise that I have also let myself down by reacting badly to situations.
It finally took a disagreement with my daughter to open my eyes and what a rude awakening it was. Oh, I know I am not always responsible for everything going wrong, but I can see where I have left myself and other people down, and I do not want to be that person anymore.
Right now, I am feeling out of control, but the one thing I can control is how I respond to situations. Someone said recently I am prickly to deal with, and at first, I scoffed at that, who me, I am not difficult. But you know what, I really am, I have taken things so personally recently, that I honestly must be a bit of a nightmare.
Is everything bad? No, absolutely not.
I have been fortunate to spend time away looking after a friend’s house which has been a wonderful break and chance to reconnect to myself and nature. Last week I walked in to a client’s house and she has hung some of the pictures which I took at a previous shoot, and that honestly was one of the nicest feelings I have exp
erienced in a long time.
I took the first step to dealing with a problem regarding my daughter’s university funding, and it felt good just to take that first step.
So, today is a reboot day, time to press those buttons and look at life with just a little more positivity, there is so much joy around us, even in these pandemic times, we just need to look.
Thank you for your patience and reading my thoughts, I wish you and yours a wonderful and peaceful Christmas, no matter how you celebrate!
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